Be your own cheer squad

I have been reflecting a lot lately and realised that I have lost confidence in myself, in general, with everything I am doing in my life.

While that sounds bad, it's been a good thing because it has forced me to start focusing on how to become my own cheer squad again.  What's that you ask?  Good question.

Imagine when you were  a child, let's say you were part of a sports team.  And you had people on the sideline, cheering you on while you played.  Those people were most likely your parents.  And they were your own personal cheer squad.  Supporting you, motivating you and making sure you believed in yourself.  So as an adult, what changes?

As children we have a blank slate that has no judgement, no criticism and usually very positive support, so our belief in ourself is not clouded by any outside influences.

As an adult, over the years, I have gone through so many different experiences including relationship break downs, losing friends to illnesses etc that it's inevitable I will have changed.  Sadly with these changes my confidence in my own abilities became so minimal that I hit a point where I thought I was of no use to anyone anymore.

I needed to take a moment to stop and think.  Think about all my achievements and everything I am blessed to currently have in my life.  I needed to realise that it's ok if I don't reach all the goals I had originally planned, as long as I don't quit entirely.

If I'm not prepared to support myself, who else is going to?  I have to be my own support system, I know myself better than anyone else, I know what I need.  I know what I'm capable of.  I know my fears and doubts.

I have this quirky visualisation of me running up and down the sideline, while another me is on that playing field.  I'm cheering me on, while the game I am playing is called life.

In an unhealthy friendship?

I've struggled over the last few years to let friends go, and I couldn't quite figure out why.

I knew that I didn't feel the same way about that person, I knew that I didn't enjoy their company anymore, yet I couldn't bring myself to walk away.

I lay in bed one night thinking about the friendships I had walked away from, and the reasons why.  I slept on those thoughts and the next morning it dawned on me, literally!

My loyalty to the people I had in my life was over riding everything.  My morals, my beliefs, everything.  I was working so hard to maintain my loyalty to these people, that I wasn't being true to myself.  I was trying to be a good person, which I think I am, yet I was letting down the person who mattered the most.  Myself.

I'm 53 and am relieved to say that I'm still learning life lessons and that's ok, it really is.

It's ok to walk away from people that don't belong in your life anymore.  It doesn't make you a bad person.  While your actions might hurt someone initially, in the long term you are doing both of you a huge favour.  

By being true to yourself, you are giving your absolute best to the world.

Worst blogger ever!

I started my blog with the best intentions and although I had all the motivation in the world, I have still faltered.

I need to get back on track...........